ok. life seriously sucks rightnow. its like the worst its ever been. like school and everything going on around the world. it sucks. despite being considered an inffected country, our damn schools are still open. what the hell are they waiting for? we are a small country, its going to pass fast.... larger countries with fewer cases have already shut down schools. all the crap about students missing out on lessons is bull shit. our health is more important for goodness sake. i just really hate school. the fact that i have to actually be serious about it now sucks too. o level chinese oral's are freaking hell next thursady, wth. and i am far from doing well at o levels for every subject at the look of my mid years. it seems almost impossible from where i see it. so far, out of reach. it is scary how i feel like i cant do it when im supposed to know that i can do it. its freaky. its like everything i've worked for is finally coming to an end.end of secondary school, end of the tiresome constant studyi ng and strict rules. finally some REAL freedom. i need that so badly right now. i've been waiting for it for the longest time and now that im almost there but its going to take a lot of effort to reach there and be happy sucks. i no you cant gain anything without working but i simply think that it is an absolutely ridiculous amount of pressure they put on us just to get a damn piece of paper that approves whether or not you are allowed to work or continue studying or pursuing a passion or simply living in this constantly competing globalising world of ours. its stressful just to think about it and what's going to become of it.SIGH..... i guess this is the first stage in my life where i actually feel like cannot tahan already. and i know that there is nothing i can do but work towards attaining the best that i can do with it. i just have to tahan it and do it even if i feel like i cant cos its o levels for goodness sake's. you cant just not do it and expect to have a great life. a miracle would be needed for that to ever happen. i just dont like the idea of having to be qualified to pursue a passion. maybe its because im lazy but everyone has their own opinions and this is mine.. oh well. i just got to suck it all up and put myself out there and try my best. everything else would be a mystery. i really wish god could tell us his plans for us. i really wanna know. i also wish i could teleport through time and place. i could just skip this period of time and move on to the next. hopefully what comes after this is something so totally awesome cos i really need it.

adding on to my previous post: my damn nose is flowing like a river so i guess my thoughts are in the same way just flowing out.

hello people. life really really is starting to suck more by the second.i can wait to reach the point in time where i'll get a feel of what true freedom is. i hate this shell or cage that everyone has to go through-SCHOOL. it freaking hell sucks man. its like approved torture. the factthat we have to go through it just to get through with life on what has become of this beautiful planet.we have turned it into a living hell and the happy moments are just a short vacation.i hope for peace and happiness. now im just strugling to get by this stage and move on to the next to reach my destination.it seems like a wait that'll last forever but i guess i'll just have to have hope and believe that i will eventually reach my destination. this is so retarded.im like comforting my self and convincing myself that this is justifiable when i still think its nonsense. oh well. that's the life we lead in a world like this, we're all just trying and doing our best to get by and hang on. so to all those who feel the same and feel captured or tied down by whatever they're facing, all i can say is to just have a little hope. all it takes is just a tiny bit,give it a shot,its the only i know besides faith that we can hold onto in this world.last thing i have to say is hang in there and believe in what you believe in, have your own mindset and just be yourself. peace out!(im having the pre- monday blues)

anyways, i made a new friend today. her name is angie and she's so cool la. she's from indonesia. she's only 14 and she's already 175cm tall. so cool. she's a model and her pictures are damn nice. she's gonna come for our sports day tmr. i told her she has to come and sit with yellow house which is my house. haha... all ya'll losers. she dont wanna sit with your house colour. school just started 4 days ago and i dont wanna go back anymore. had CIP today. quite ok la. my damn hot the weather. we went to vegetable farm somemore.brought old people there. couldn't speak english so had to speak chinese but at least the old lady understood what i was saying so ya.there's american idol today,cool. i think they're all damn good i ahev no favourites. so excited to eat pizza and watch american idol. just now cow,rup,millet and i went to mcdonald's and we went mad. laughed for no apparent reason and i laughed so hard at one part my stomach was freaking pain. laughed so hard i couldnt laugh any harder. it was fun. hope we're that high tmr so we can have fun. i think i'll stop here. see ya'll. peace out.

hi world. you will not believe what just happened to me. so bloody annoying la.
i went online to check the number for saprino's to order pizza. then i called the number and they asked my address and gave me another number to call. so i called that number and the dude asked me for my addresses and i told him so many times and he didnt understand so i was trying to explain to him and he was like yio chu kang so big. so i was like its beside the post office from where ya'll are at and then he asked me my name and i said but i he didnt get it so i just said john. then he asked me if i really wanted to order pizza or if was a prank call then i was like wth.then he asked me my name again i said jd. then he said dd? then i was like j....d..... then he kept repeating my address and asking me if i was sure then i was like ya...... i really wanna order pizza and he was sure sure sure. bloody idiot la. then after awhile he gave me another number,the uppersearngoon outlet.loser la he. i called the upper serangoon number and immediately after i told them my contact number they told me my address and took my order. that fella such a bloody loser la. stupid fool. piss me off.

hello people. i just ate colourful cereal.damn exciting la. i fed my dog some and i think he likes it too. but i think it taste better without milk cos they cereal pieces quite thin and small. oh well, im having a bloody flu.my stupid random flu.im watching one tree hill online. only got like 10 more episodes then im done. im still witing on cowpana's reply to go for fall out boy. i wanna go so badly, asked so many ppl and all of them said cannot.cowpana better be able to or else i'll have to go alone. the red jumpsuit apparatus are coming, march 10 i think.oh well, must save for nicer bands. i only know 2 of their songs.see ya'll.im going to eat again. salami this time and maybe have a nice cold drink. my advice for the weekened is to just relax even if you gotlots to do like me. the key to enjoying and living life to the fullest is to relax. that's like my life motto. peace out homies.oh ya, i bought my first book ever i think,its not actualy a book la but nevermind. it's the simpsons!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey, im finally back. guess what? i was just at the sistic website checking the availibility of ticets for jason mraz's concert and it is freaking hell sold out la.kelly's gonna be so sad. i wanted to go also. oh well. there's still fall out boy though. dunno if i should go. i think it'll be funwe'llsee. their new song america's suitehearts is quite nice. i like the i... must confess part the best.ok
going to bed now. see ya'll. peace out.

hello world.
the year is ending so fast im not sure i can catch up,
i have so much to do just dont know where to start.
no motivation to get moving,
and actually get something going.
thats my attempt at a poem.
there are like only 5 weks of holiday or smth left only. so sad.
i guess all good things just has to come to an end.
but,
look on the bright side,
the best time of the year
is finally here,
an occasion full of lights,
then shine oh so bright,
in the dark night.
its CHRISTMAS once again,
so lets enjoy this time,
full of joy and candy cane,
this festival is a favourite of mine.
yet another attempt at a poem.
CHRISTMAS IS SO AWESOME.
I WISH IT COULD LAST ALL YEAR,
NOT AT ALL WOULD IT BE TROUBLESOME,
BUT MORE SO,BE A JOYOUS CHEER.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL IN ADVANCE!

since someone said i have to update my blog i will... lets see.didnt do anything fun so far.saw eudora and adelia off at the airport to china last thurs.quite exciting.went to ikea yesterday.sat in the car with the windows down the whole journey to and fro and my hair went mad.i'll post photos later.watched high school musical 3 today believe it or not.my brother offered to buy me the ticket so i just decided to follow.not so bad la but the ppl in the cinema were so freaking annoying man.making sounds all.but it was quite nice and funny at parts.my favourite was ROCKETMAN. i love rocketman.he's so funny.im having a halloween party,i think.hopefully ppl who are invited can come.it'll be fun.my mother just spent 1and a half hours braiding my entire head.anyhow one la.not like how alicia keys does it or anything.but its cool.though the rubberbands used are of awful colour.no other small rubberband la.its all pink and yellow and lime green.the green's fine.just the pink and the yellow that is disturbing.so i'll try to keep it the way it is till maybe sat morning.then i'll take a picture once i take out all the braids.my hair is going to be so freaking big man.can't wait.anyone interested in a halloween party pls contact me.i think i'll be a vampire or the scream ghost or smth.so many things to be.i love halloween.but i love christmas more.cant wait for that either.